A Closed Heart, A Closed Body

I’ll admit, my heart wasn’t in it last week.

Some disagreements with my husband left me feeling unseen, unheard, and emotionally disconnected. I put some big ass walls up around my heart. And when my heart closes, my body follows. Suddenly, the magnetic attraction I usually feel for him disappeared. The thought of intimacy was the furthest thing from my mind - and that’s saying something.

Have you ever been there? You feel so annoyed, angry, hurt, disappointed [insert emotion here] that you shut down your heart, push your partner away, and want nothing to do with them until they apologise or acknowledge what happened? Guilty! I do it all the time. My husband seems to get over things really quickly and I’m still stewing over it 2 days later!

For me, it’s not just my emotions that are affected. My sexual energy refuses to flow. Usually I have a lot of sexual energy, and I want to be intimate all the time, but when I put walls up around my heart, it blocks the flow of my erotic energy as well! Even self pleasuring sucks! Climax is hard to reach, and even if I do reach the peak, it’s a massive let down and I don’t even feel good afterwards.

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